I might object that as far as I know there was no real democratic forum for people to voice an opinion directly on whether they wanted London to host the Olympics. I might believe that the Olympics is a corporatist gang bang, as in the taxpayer pays for it & major corporations capitalize from it & many of whom are avoiding paying tax to the British treasury. I might not agree with some of the police state shenanigans that are going on as a consequence of London hosting the Olympics, but I don’t want to piss on anybody’s enjoyment of the Olympics.

The weather has dramatically warmed up; you can feel people getting excited in the build up to the opening ceremony on Friday & well with people getting excited about the Olympics it means that people are happy. I’d prefer people were excited & therefore happy about billions being spent on affordable housing rather then the Olympics, but hey people being happy is a good thing & considering all the economic doom & gloom it’s a good thing that there’s something people can be happy about. People might only ne happy for a short while because the Olympics is only for a short while, but at least for a short while people are happy & I can’t piss on that happiness.

I can’t piss on people’s happiness, despite my terrible admission that only on Saturday I was thinking about throwing myself under Olympic road cycle race in protest of discrimination in the transgender community against transgender persons who also suffer from physical disabilities. The Olympic cycle road race passes less then 100metres from my house & I had wanted to make a scene because fighting the temptation to self harm has become increasingly harder to fight off caused by feeling alienated from the transgender community; but I’m alienated from the transgender community not because of discrimination in the transgender community towards those with physical disabilities (though I do believe there’s a lack of understanding), I’m alienated from the transgender community due to my atrocious behaviour.

Its time for me to grow the fuck up & cease pissing on the happiness of others & that starts with not pissing happiness many will get from the Olympics happening in London.

I had a good cry this morning but not because I was feeling sorry for myself but because I came to realise that a lot of people had been trying to help me but given up because I wasn’t receptive to the help they were offering, People had been trying to help me but because I was in blizzard of anger at the world I was unable to see it & all those people got was taste of my anger.

Come this weekend I’ll be in front of the television cheering on the British athletes to win gold, gold, gold!

I genuinely hope that millions get pleasure from the London hosting the Olympics or are inspired by London hosting the Olympics.